May 2013
6 posts
When I See Your Name I Want to Cry
Held in reality, dangling by a thread Water flushes up my nose and in my head The sinus infection of the existential dead These words suck, stay still, I’m inbred. Emotional void and a barren conscious My past, present, and future all righteous But my belonging is far more salacious I’ll just suffer alone and pretentious. I can’t help My calmness of routine in my rhyming, My collected...
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Sobriety
When I’m not up in the sky, I can’t feel the crushing guilt of my wasted time. When I’m not feeling my blood coarse through uninhibited, I feel justly fine. When I stare alone in my empty home, waiting for the next day to come, I pass away the minutes. But if my head isn’t to be found, and my mind is focused on sounds, Limbo is where I’m restless. ...
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Drabble III
It’s the ever mounting pressure to be something I can only dream of that keeps me drinking at night pondering, scheming on how to be Better. I write, legs up, flesh naked a cold air no where to be seen. Sheets as rough as silk, a heat sinking in my gut. A sexless rhythm is in my soul pounding away ironically at my bones My confidence is in need of a home, My mind is wanted back...
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Call Back
I must be doing something right you keep stammering with me on and on until the sun makes it back till the birds chirp and the dirt cracks. I’m a shut-in, through and through, and you’re still here, what’s wrong with you? Porn, booze, and endless freedom Food and clothes are not welcome This is my everything, what I call whoredom something we can relate to in your...
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I'm Sorry, I'm Awful
I got questions and you have answers to life, the universe, and love forgotten. An anonymous interest, so endearing you exclaim. My only wish is never to know my pseudo lover’s flame. But in this fire, where metal drips so hot is your touch, it can melt through the Earth. A time for rebirth is all I crave, a chance for my worth to shave off a few bumps of lonely waves, and...
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Drabble II
I feel disgusted yet welcomed and outraged but delighted and hate of myself and love to yourself. Old habits die hard in ways I can’t fathom. I thought I was never good enough, and I still do. But you persistently mentioning the opposite things, yet consistently act the other way, it hurts and tugs on my heart strings. I know I’m overreacting and I know that...
April 2013
14 posts
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Summer Lovin'
I feel my skin a’cookin’
Baby my heart’s an oven I want that summer lovin’
Burn all bright and beat all true. Shady trees I’m a’huntin’ Your life is unbecomin’ Babe, I want that summer lovin’ To shine polish on you. I get my greed a’racin’ Can’t you see my pockets burnin’? I want your summer lovin’ To grip me and never let...
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Blind
I wish the world lost their sight like me To be so blinded that no one could make out features so prevalent. I pray each night as I’m restoring my eyes that stunning high-definition is just fragmented imagination. Once the conditioning winds down and I can see at my own true self, I see an object of beauty, not another soul to match. It’s without my script that I feel...
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Drabble I
The people I talked to, the few that do, Uplifting boredom, your gray scaled colors show true. Fashionably fabulous but buyer’s remorse it’s no wonder you had it all stolen. The tearing weight of a champion lost, El Generalissimo now stands in your wake. It’s bright outside, my window tells me, but enclosed in my sick bay is where I’ll stay. My thoughts, to those...
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Back There
I keep having these Fantasies in which I am better at everything. I’m bigger, stronger, better equipped. Quick with a joke, a smoke, a life I must’ve skipped. Rants and Raves I miss all the same, twelve hours on two wheels really turns the frame. I can’t keep clear, I want the fog back in my ears. Those sights and lights and crowds put me back into first gear.
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Ensalada de Medicina
My words are so literal with no imagination and I see you just spiraling along, rainbows touching your tits shouting aloud and beckoning for more! Yet with a subtle kiss, you are tidal. Yet with a gentle touch, you are cosmic. With a leering pry and with those damn dark brown eyes. Your ivories send sonics through my own, even the forgotten three rattle in their holes. Your lips were...
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Mountain Dew
Sparkly beings atop sparkling trees haunted souls on wicker floors dining and cavorting passionately swaying down and down to pool depths, so bitter and cold. My bones ache with a sweetness this carbonation of fleetness shows my lack of completeness in everything, especially you. My nudist sensations mark my dangerous ways. My bruises and marks confine my inner beauty. I continue to...
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Slut
Thick ass, think fast, give me whiplash with your big bulge, wanna indulge in your heat. I wanna sit down, you inside cherish all and we’ll reside off the street. I wanna sleep alone, mind a-drome copycat until I die, never mind how I try, fantasy feeling. Keep on searching for your tasting with my life I’m slowly wasting, tragedy healing. I’ll still do me, and do...
Pulp Fraction
notnowyoutwo:
Beauty, grace, talented creativity make the man where having all but one will tear them down. Dancing in the street, parading around the night, simply to enlighten a dark and stormy frown. For it’s the former that limits me by having none of those three and it haunts my self, my faults. I plan to float down the red sea. Into oblivion or into stardom the only two...
Breathless
notnowyoutwo:
Never again will this one tremble
to sort beneath my feet I forever shall.
Forget what is put into motion
and just go with it.
Relaxing and taking its time through your mind, guiding and gliding, its stutter we find. My mouth will move, my cords will strum a hiccup inside, sound sensations above. Truly you cannot believe this tale of splatter where else would you find...
Puzzles and Riddles Galore
notnowyoutwo:
My madness is condemning, my rhythm and flow. I’m screeching to a halt and I rather like it; though I can’t seem to stop my words from wading through snow and for the love of God, I just want to go slow. My thoughts are jumbled into rhymes that grow, they never make sense except to me, I know. But it’s the only way I can effectively show that I’m not ending up as another...
A Rockstar for Five Hours
notnowyoutwo:
Making my way downtown, at the rise of an early day. Already the waves cascade, thousands of souls out to play. The sun shone and the wind breathes, the loud and cacophonous harmonies of those thousands outside all waiting to feed. Their hunger for knicks and knacks, even while their discontent distracts and their love interacts with fire and metal, rusted to beauty. By...
I don't know what it is about late nights
notnowyoutwo:
When I’m drifting around 2 in the morning… 3 in the morning and further still, I feel the need to defrag myself to compress my hard rive, if you will. I feel compelled to let it all out and yet I never do. Because I want to shout it out, but there will be no one to hear it too. I’ve strayed quite far from it all, I can’t possibly return home. I’ve become too attached to...
Having trouble sleeping
notnowyoutwo:
Just can’t wait to be done Can’t stand anymore fun Reconcile in your lover’s bed Oh lord I can’t wait to be dead
I miss
notnowyoutwo:
Your likes, comments, compliments and faves. I miss your heart, soul, body and rage. I want you back, here, near and now. But I won’t get that, never matter how.
Fuck that sucked. I’ll try to write something better next time, when it’ s not 9:30 am.
